I don’t know about you but I always like my clothes better when I have to go away somewhere and I have only packed my very favourite things. I always feel better and more comfortable and its always so much easier getting dressed. Things that I know I like and have been well thought out before hand. So I am starting a new little life project, starting with my clothes. I have already had a massive grand sort out and have given a lot away to charity and will sell further things on at the flea market/ebay and Depop, so look out! However I can do more. Here is the shocking bit. I won’t be buying any more clothes, makeup, jewelry, shoes or bags for 6 months. I am allowed to replace things that I use up/ or break/ or are beyond repair. I want to mend and make more and become less of a consumer of cheap, badly made clothes and things. I have more than enough things that I don’t wear of have forgotten about and I really need to save and start getting rid of things in my life. My flat is a hoarders paradise and I want to live with the things I enjoy, love, have use for or make me happy. I also feel massively guilty about my consumeristic habits and also find my self buying things when I am unhappy or sad or need to feel better and that isn’t right. I also do not like the culture of having to buy the next big thing or trend and forgetting what I like and what my style is. I am also very impulsive with buying clothes and I would like to become more considered. So here is a start of a little project where I remix my wardrobe and start wearing or getting rid of things I do not feel fit in. I want to document the outfits and ways in which I can mix things up and re wear. I also want to start budgeting better and becoming more conscious of things and less of a broken pocket. I have written before that I love the idea of ones own uniform and mine definitely consists of comfy trainers, black and something denim. I love clothes and dressing up, also I love makeup for the same reason. It makes me feel like me when I put my favourite outfit together and am not wearing pj’s or leggings (this is my daily uniform as of late).
Here are some funny/awks/silly photos of me.
Coat- gifted second hand / Mustard cardy- Independent shop in Gracia / Denim dress- Monki / Heart shirt- Pull & Bear / Watch- Withings / Shoes- Nike / Bag- Cambridge satchel company.
Coat- Oysho / Tshirt- H&M / necklace &otherstories / Jeans Monki / Boots- Office / Bag- Cambridge satchel company.
Hello. I wrote in my last post a little bit about self-care and learning to love myself a little bit more. Most days it is a great struggle to get out of bed, let alone getting dressed and putting on makeup etc. However it is one-act that makes me feel better on the outside, even if on the inside I feel like I am rotting away a little bit. My visual identity and appearance has always been super important to me. Its how I express my self and it shows how I am and a bit of who I am. I associate an image with myself that my illness often strips away from me. I have struggled to come to terms with this a lot. As superficial as it sounds, being chronically ill and therefore having a puffed up, painful sick body just doesn’t fit in with “me”. It really isn’t a good/cool/hip look at all. Add disease and drug induced weight gain, hair loss and acne to the mix I often feel like I have lost me and my identity. Over the years I have found my style, adopted it because of this. I reach for the more comfy, materials that make me feel cosy and warm and that hide the bits of me I don’t wish to show. I am starting to accept a little bit about the way I know look and how this has changed and would very much like to start making positive changes to improve it (diet, learning to accept and soft excercise when I can). Saying that I would also like to remove some of the pressure I already put on myself about how I think I should be or look. My body is under enough pressure and shit as it is already. I think I need to enjoy the act of dressing and feeling like me, even if it’s a version I don’t recognise any more. Yay for comfort, finding ones new and already existing style and feeling comfortable in one’s skin, even if that skin isn’t brilliant and ones bones are achey. It’s the little things that make me feel better and if I can fool myself and others into looking that bit better that is a good thing.
Happy Sunday to you all (as cheery as it can be all things considering). I thought that I would do an updated version of my what-I-Wore-Today. It serves more as a diary though like my last one
So this month has passed in such a blur, like groundhog day. This sick lark is getting so very wall-climbingly-cabin-feverish boring. Trying to take an hour a day to record little ideas and thoughts either in my sketchbooks or through drawings like these. Its also about appreciating the little things like cups of tea, and enjoying those quiet moments. Its also about making healthy nutritious soups (broccoli being my fave- more to come!). Keeping dreaming too, mainly about nice little houses and wood fires and the like. We have had cosy nights in watching Sherlock and other series. Its a quiet life at the moment and all about all the small minute things.
A little quick post to just show you one of my favourite
outfits uniforms as of late. Its really HOT here and I feel all flustered and sweaty and ill and I don’t know what to wear. Ever. My body does not do this heat at all.
Life has been a bit blah as of late, I am still sick and achey and now have horrible stomach cramps as a result of all my medication. I do not feel like being photographed so I decided to draw my outfit and throw in a sort of journal entry. I enjoyed doing this and it didn’t take long. I might even churn out some more if you are lucky (no promises though obvs haha).
Shorts- H&M (live in these!), Cami- H&M, Denim Jacket- Monki, Sandals- Saltwater (gold!), bag- Kanken, Came’s collar- Models own.
Hola! Its CHILLY! Yes finally. I always start any post with a weather update, like the only way I know how. Anyway onwards.
Denim owns my little blue heart. I love it so, its history and versatility. This blue dream is from Monki. Monki being another favourite of mine. Its made of a stiff denim and is my go to whenever I want to feel better about myself. I like to mix and match it with tights and a good winter knit, boots and a jacket. Here it is layered to the max. This is one of my classic wardrobe staples.
Jacket-MONKI/ Scarf-PULL&BEAR/ Dress-MONKI/ Boots-Dr Martens/ Bag-KANKEN/ Cardy-PULL&BEAR.
Socks-ZARA (sparkly and gold!). Crinkled and windswept.
Worn: Grey tshirt (H&M), Denim Shirt (H&M), grey Sweatshirt (Monki), Parka (Monki), Scarf (Pull&bear), Headscarf (H&M),
boots (DR Martens), Backpack (Kanken)
I have returned from “El Pueblo” (AKA the end of the end of the world). I will write later about how very important it was for me to get back to where I need to be and who I am.
Anyway Portugal was amazing as ever, but cold. The type of cold that settles in your bones and doesn’t leave. Many a layers were needed and I was still cold.
I have been thinking about my personal style and what I like and what makes me me for a while now. I am finding that I am going for more staple simple things and things that I know will last me beyond a season. A lot of the time I find my self reaching for the same kind of thing. I appreciate well cut things and also my obsession with denim knows no bounds (only rival to be*witched haha!). I like greys and autumnal colours mixed with mustard yellow. I also like sturdy things and clothes that hold up well when either cycling, on a walk or painting and printing. If you know me well I am often covered with a stain of some sort. I also like to play with classic shapes (parka, headscarf) and mix masculine and feminine things. I am planning to do a bit of a series as I embark on a quest to not actually spend any more money on clothes. I need to make my own, buy second hand or just buy absolute necessities or staples. No excuses! I need to save and stop the clothes buying binging guilt (this applies to cosmetics and beauty items too!).
Worn: Monki Jacket, Muji gingham smock dress, Newbalance 420 trainers & a vintage bag.
September is drawing to a close and it feels like its finally Autumn. I am writing this post tucked away in my little studio as the heavens open up and it is raining biblically. Its one of those delightful Sundays were you stay in all day catching up on tv and youtube/blogs and the like. Currently dressed in warm cosies and feeling snug is quite nice. It almost makes you wistful for the fresh breezes and dappled sunlight days that early September brings; meaning bare legs and fun dresses (as depicted on a fine Bank Holiday “Fiesta” Wednesday). Making the most of that before its all tights, jeans and layers and having to pack away summer dresses for another year.
Along with the end of September brings the promise of cooler months and autumnal(ish) clothing. I start to know how to dress and thus feel a lot more like myself. Ever happy with layering and wearing a jacket and being more covered up. Casual Sunday lunches and walks with the puppy-wonder make for laid back sartorial choices. Just the way I like it.
PS: lots-o-photos because my Pup is quite the cute one so it makes it hard to choose!