It’s been a fair while hasn’t it? Well I have had a little heart to heart with this space recently, but what I mean it’s been a while since I’ve popped in and showed my face and my outfit.
We adventured out to Delta de Llobregat on a blustery but warm spring day recently. It was amazing. Such a beaut of a place (more on that soon).
I am going to go into more detail about this soon and dedicate a whole blogging / video series (yep that’s right I am now on the youtubes), but I have been on a total clothes/shoes/bags etc spending ban. Just because it was getting out of hand and also because when moving I realized how much stuff I pack around with me. Right proper pack rat I am.
So returning to some favourites. Denim and stripes and keeping it all super simple. Simple colours and accessories. Pretty much my uniform. I have noticed this actually, through not buying new stuff, I naturally gravitate towards certain things every time. Comfort and feeling like me is a must.
Jacket – Topshop / Jeans – Monki / Tshirt- H&M / Trainers – New Balance / Necklace – &OtherStories /
Earrings – Etsy / Backpack – Kanken.
So I thought I would post a super casual style post again to show how I am mixing bits and pieces up. As you all know I am sticking to my no buying ban in order to sort out all my stuff and also not buy into cheap, crappy clothes market. I will treasure and keep what I love. It’s also a bit of an exploration into my personal style, as it forces me to embrace what I have and experiment with it and eventually throw the stuff I am not too keen on. I tend to keep things pretty simple as of late. Items that are comfortable above anything else. Purely for the reason I don’t actually leave home a lot and when I do it zaps all the energy from me so I want to feel comfortable and not trying to fight with items of un-comfy clothing. So its been a jeans and t-shirt kind of affair and I couldn’t be happier. I do missing dressing up daily and wearing the more fancy items in my wardrobe, I shall be slowly putting these bits back in and experimenting some more. I need to have the big spring/summer change over and I think this will be good for a re sort out and rediscovering some favourites and getting rid of some not so favourite pieces.
I have had this jacket for years and years (over 10!) I love the style, colour and fit still. This is a firm favourite. I also am a massive fan of mustard yellow and love the t-shirt with the rust colour of the jacket. These are “my” colours. Jeans are same as before, they are so comfy. Trainers are also a must have at the moment, I can’t seem to wear anything else. That will of course change with the heat. Earrings are new, I have wanted some simple gold studs for years. I am allergic to anything else in my ears. Backpack is such a staple too, it is like Mary Poppins bag and fits so much in it. I often have to cart around my medical papers, prescriptions, note-book sketchbook, kindle and camera to hospital appointments so its good to have something easy and comfortable.
I don’t know about you but I always like my clothes better when I have to go away somewhere and I have only packed my very favourite things. I always feel better and more comfortable and its always so much easier getting dressed. Things that I know I like and have been well thought out before hand. So I am starting a new little life project, starting with my clothes. I have already had a massive grand sort out and have given a lot away to charity and will sell further things on at the flea market/ebay and Depop, so look out! However I can do more. Here is the shocking bit. I won’t be buying any more clothes, makeup, jewelry, shoes or bags for 6 months. I am allowed to replace things that I use up/ or break/ or are beyond repair. I want to mend and make more and become less of a consumer of cheap, badly made clothes and things. I have more than enough things that I don’t wear of have forgotten about and I really need to save and start getting rid of things in my life. My flat is a hoarders paradise and I want to live with the things I enjoy, love, have use for or make me happy. I also feel massively guilty about my consumeristic habits and also find my self buying things when I am unhappy or sad or need to feel better and that isn’t right. I also do not like the culture of having to buy the next big thing or trend and forgetting what I like and what my style is. I am also very impulsive with buying clothes and I would like to become more considered. So here is a start of a little project where I remix my wardrobe and start wearing or getting rid of things I do not feel fit in. I want to document the outfits and ways in which I can mix things up and re wear. I also want to start budgeting better and becoming more conscious of things and less of a broken pocket. I have written before that I love the idea of ones own uniform and mine definitely consists of comfy trainers, black and something denim. I love clothes and dressing up, also I love makeup for the same reason. It makes me feel like me when I put my favourite outfit together and am not wearing pj’s or leggings (this is my daily uniform as of late).
Here are some funny/awks/silly photos of me.
Coat- gifted second hand / Mustard cardy- Independent shop in Gracia / Denim dress- Monki / Heart shirt- Pull & Bear / Watch- Withings / Shoes- Nike / Bag- Cambridge satchel company.
Coat- Oysho / Tshirt- H&M / necklace &otherstories / Jeans Monki / Boots- Office / Bag- Cambridge satchel company.
Hello. I wrote in my last post a little bit about self-care and learning to love myself a little bit more. Most days it is a great struggle to get out of bed, let alone getting dressed and putting on makeup etc. However it is one-act that makes me feel better on the outside, even if on the inside I feel like I am rotting away a little bit. My visual identity and appearance has always been super important to me. Its how I express my self and it shows how I am and a bit of who I am. I associate an image with myself that my illness often strips away from me. I have struggled to come to terms with this a lot. As superficial as it sounds, being chronically ill and therefore having a puffed up, painful sick body just doesn’t fit in with “me”. It really isn’t a good/cool/hip look at all. Add disease and drug induced weight gain, hair loss and acne to the mix I often feel like I have lost me and my identity. Over the years I have found my style, adopted it because of this. I reach for the more comfy, materials that make me feel cosy and warm and that hide the bits of me I don’t wish to show. I am starting to accept a little bit about the way I know look and how this has changed and would very much like to start making positive changes to improve it (diet, learning to accept and soft excercise when I can). Saying that I would also like to remove some of the pressure I already put on myself about how I think I should be or look. My body is under enough pressure and shit as it is already. I think I need to enjoy the act of dressing and feeling like me, even if it’s a version I don’t recognise any more. Yay for comfort, finding ones new and already existing style and feeling comfortable in one’s skin, even if that skin isn’t brilliant and ones bones are achey. It’s the little things that make me feel better and if I can fool myself and others into looking that bit better that is a good thing.