Jacket – Second hand vintage / Dress – Primark / Backpack (not pictured) – Kanken / Shoes – Vans.
SO its that time of the week again when I share my wares and attire. If you know me in IRL then you would’ve seen me wear this dress quite a few times. It is a cheap old thing from Primark. However I love the fit and the monochromeness of it. I normally wear it with boots and a denim jacket however decided to mix it up a bit. I love LOVE this jacket as it goes so well with denim and is warm and casual and scruffs things up a bit. Which I like. These Vans are also my one true (many true loves though) love. They are so good and comfy and go so well with both dresses and jeans. The other day I saw a girl rock a midi length skirt with vans and socks and it looked GREAT. Anyway what I wanted to say is that this is a very me like outfit and you can mostly find me wearing something of the sort.
So I thought I would post a super casual style post again to show how I am mixing bits and pieces up. As you all know I am sticking to my no buying ban in order to sort out all my stuff and also not buy into cheap, crappy clothes market. I will treasure and keep what I love. It’s also a bit of an exploration into my personal style, as it forces me to embrace what I have and experiment with it and eventually throw the stuff I am not too keen on. I tend to keep things pretty simple as of late. Items that are comfortable above anything else. Purely for the reason I don’t actually leave home a lot and when I do it zaps all the energy from me so I want to feel comfortable and not trying to fight with items of un-comfy clothing. So its been a jeans and t-shirt kind of affair and I couldn’t be happier. I do missing dressing up daily and wearing the more fancy items in my wardrobe, I shall be slowly putting these bits back in and experimenting some more. I need to have the big spring/summer change over and I think this will be good for a re sort out and rediscovering some favourites and getting rid of some not so favourite pieces.
I have had this jacket for years and years (over 10!) I love the style, colour and fit still. This is a firm favourite. I also am a massive fan of mustard yellow and love the t-shirt with the rust colour of the jacket. These are “my” colours. Jeans are same as before, they are so comfy. Trainers are also a must have at the moment, I can’t seem to wear anything else. That will of course change with the heat. Earrings are new, I have wanted some simple gold studs for years. I am allergic to anything else in my ears. Backpack is such a staple too, it is like Mary Poppins bag and fits so much in it. I often have to cart around my medical papers, prescriptions, note-book sketchbook, kindle and camera to hospital appointments so its good to have something easy and comfortable.
I don’t know about you but I always like my clothes better when I have to go away somewhere and I have only packed my very favourite things. I always feel better and more comfortable and its always so much easier getting dressed. Things that I know I like and have been well thought out before hand. So I am starting a new little life project, starting with my clothes. I have already had a massive grand sort out and have given a lot away to charity and will sell further things on at the flea market/ebay and Depop, so look out! However I can do more. Here is the shocking bit. I won’t be buying any more clothes, makeup, jewelry, shoes or bags for 6 months. I am allowed to replace things that I use up/ or break/ or are beyond repair. I want to mend and make more and become less of a consumer of cheap, badly made clothes and things. I have more than enough things that I don’t wear of have forgotten about and I really need to save and start getting rid of things in my life. My flat is a hoarders paradise and I want to live with the things I enjoy, love, have use for or make me happy. I also feel massively guilty about my consumeristic habits and also find my self buying things when I am unhappy or sad or need to feel better and that isn’t right. I also do not like the culture of having to buy the next big thing or trend and forgetting what I like and what my style is. I am also very impulsive with buying clothes and I would like to become more considered. So here is a start of a little project where I remix my wardrobe and start wearing or getting rid of things I do not feel fit in. I want to document the outfits and ways in which I can mix things up and re wear. I also want to start budgeting better and becoming more conscious of things and less of a broken pocket. I have written before that I love the idea of ones own uniform and mine definitely consists of comfy trainers, black and something denim. I love clothes and dressing up, also I love makeup for the same reason. It makes me feel like me when I put my favourite outfit together and am not wearing pj’s or leggings (this is my daily uniform as of late).
Hello. I wrote in my last post a little bit about self-care and learning to love myself a little bit more. Most days it is a great struggle to get out of bed, let alone getting dressed and putting on makeup etc. However it is one-act that makes me feel better on the outside, even if on the inside I feel like I am rotting away a little bit. My visual identity and appearance has always been super important to me. Its how I express my self and it shows how I am and a bit of who I am. I associate an image with myself that my illness often strips away from me. I have struggled to come to terms with this a lot. As superficial as it sounds, being chronically ill and therefore having a puffed up, painful sick body just doesn’t fit in with “me”. It really isn’t a good/cool/hip look at all. Add disease and drug induced weight gain, hair loss and acne to the mix I often feel like I have lost me and my identity. Over the years I have found my style, adopted it because of this. I reach for the more comfy, materials that make me feel cosy and warm and that hide the bits of me I don’t wish to show. I am starting to accept a little bit about the way I know look and how this has changed and would very much like to start making positive changes to improve it (diet, learning to accept and soft excercise when I can). Saying that I would also like to remove some of the pressure I already put on myself about how I think I should be or look. My body is under enough pressure and shit as it is already. I think I need to enjoy the act of dressing and feeling like me, even if it’s a version I don’t recognise any more. Yay for comfort, finding ones new and already existing style and feeling comfortable in one’s skin, even if that skin isn’t brilliant and ones bones are achey. It’s the little things that make me feel better and if I can fool myself and others into looking that bit better that is a good thing.
Happy Sunday to you all (as cheery as it can be all things considering). I thought that I would do an updated version of my what-I-Wore-Today. It serves more as a diary though like my last one
So this month has passed in such a blur, like groundhog day. This sick lark is getting so very wall-climbingly-cabin-feverish boring. Trying to take an hour a day to record little ideas and thoughts either in my sketchbooks or through drawings like these. Its also about appreciating the little things like cups of tea, and enjoying those quiet moments. Its also about making healthy nutritious soups (broccoli being my fave- more to come!). Keeping dreaming too, mainly about nice little houses and wood fires and the like. We have had cosy nights in watching Sherlock and other series. Its a quiet life at the moment and all about all the small minute things.
As a sufferer of a chronic illness my skin quite literally takes a battering. Chronic fatigue (Lupus symptom) leaves my skin looking tired and just ill really. I have a horrid red rash on my cheeks thanks to Lupus. I am also allergic to UV light and sunlight (this is yet another symptom of Lupus). The medications I am taking leave me with horrid acne on my chin and neck at the grand age of 30. The steroids make me have a big fat moon face. Hey-ho though. The thing I also find that being chronically ill is that it makes my confidence and self esteem rock bottom. This is why I find such pleasure in the superficial things that make me feel a bit better about myself, a bit brighter and new. I always feel more “well” and put together and better about myself when I have put in a tiny bit of effort. Its like fooling my body into thinking its a bit better- at least I don’t look as bad as I feel inside on the outside. I also don’t want to cake my face in a load of skin eating make-up as my skin is sensitive and reacts easily. I want something good and nourishing for my face. Something that also protects me from the sun and also keeps my spots hidden or at bay. I also want something easy that doesn’t take 5 million hours to blend into my skin, something that I don’t really need to think about and something that is effortless. I am a massive BB cream fan for this reason, it feels moisturising and gives me just the right amount of coverage and protection from those harmful rays and really easy to apply. These are the best I have found thus far.
My old faithful MAC BB cream, blends super easy. Really good colour match for me (probably the best of the three- I am PALE). I apply this with my fingers as I would a moisturiser or applied with my ever trusty new favourite the beauty blender. SPF 25- this is quite heavy duty and lasting protector of my skin- which is the most important factor for me. Quite good coverage and ever so long wearing. I will forever return to this as a base as I do love it so. It leaves my skin dewy but not shiny and my face doesn’t seem to want to eat it up as such is the case with a lot of bases. Yes a winner for me.
Saying that, I decided to buy and try these two bases. I had heard rave things about this base from loads of BBloggers. It’s amazing. Good coverage that is like a gel. It feels super soothing and not face eaty at all. My skin likes it. The glow oh the glow that it leaves my skin with. The term dewy is so very apt. This is perfect for the summer, but with my skin needs a light dusting of face powder to keep it in place. Its so good though, my skin but better effect.
Finally this fell into my little black basket in Sephora (that dangerous place- I am now the holder of the black card- aka the big spenders club). It smells like cucumbers and is probably the most soothing of the three. I always find that Estee Lauder seem to make good trusted skin care stuff (if its good enough for your mum…) The colour is more of the shade of my summer skin (the light is actually quite dark imo). It works better applied with the beauty blender than fingers but blends well. As I said so soothing so probably will reach for this on my more sensitive skin days.
All three bases to a marvelous job of covering up my red cheeks and protecting my skin against the sun whilst offering a light coverage and thats what I want. They also make me feel more smoothed out and a little less frazzled and put together, even on the mornings when I can’t even hardly lift my arms. I love no effort stuff. What are your favourite bases?
Why hello there FRI-YAY! I wanted to do another little weekly round up of good things to remind me of THE GOOD THINGS in life. I bloody need the remind to be honest. I thought I would try to illustrate them. I had a major melt down paddy at drawing my beloved PJ Harvey. I officially can’t draw PJ. She is too good to put into drawing form (I just ain’t got the skillz). I will be drawing more of my girl-heroes! I have a plenty. Lets not hope I get the strops like this time though…
Oh Polly Jean you sure do own a piece of my black little heart. I have seen her twice in my life, both times amaazing (she was wearing a spice girl dress for one performance!). BUT this album reaches somewhere deep in my marrow and stays there. I love it. It has to be one of the best from the past 5 years if not more. Its so hauntingly beautiful and the lyrics (as always is the case with PJ) are amazing. One of my favourite albums ever and ever so fitting for my weird longing for my isle. Watch all the video’s in this playlist and listen to the full album. It will take you on a journey of an archaic English adventure.
I have always and forever been obsessed with the 1960’s. I kind of wish I was around to document this time and see and feel it with my own eyes. It seems like such an important changeable time. I also just love any of the imagery and iconography that comes with it.
So this is a dedication to my tools and my deepest love for what they allow me to do and for all things stationary (it says pencils above not penises…)
Again, this is just a taster of a blog post that is to follow. I want to do one about my favourite tools and pens and pencils that I use as an artist/illustrator/maker/experimenter person. Above is my favourite pen that is from Muji. Its an indian ink filled brush pen thing. So handy and such a time saver. Its my go to pen at the moment and has heavily influenced my work as of late. The other thing pictured is my muji mechanical clicky pencil thing. Its my dream pencil and everything looks better sketched out in it. Also pictured is my beloved ink well. I love love love ink. Its dark splodgy messy marks makes everything look how I imagine it in my head. Had a terrible paddy fit of a day yesterday (as mentioned above…) when nothing comes out of my hands like it is pictured in my head and this makes me SAD and RAGEY. I hate that feeling of uselessness. It has passed though (sort of).
I have also been loving and I mean LOVING with all my heart this series on bbc 4. Its about artists. I have reawakened my belief in what is my calling in life and what I should be doing and I don’t think I can let anything get in that way any longer. So inspired and so refreshing, here are two of my very very favourites:
Tracey was (and is still) my hero when I was 15/16/17. Her work seemed to really speak to me visually and meaningfully. I love her so so much. She is such a special weirdo and tells her unique sad and powerful story in such a way. Flaws and all. (thats what makes her so strong).
This makes for a slightly awkward viewing but I love love these two. Brilliance. Watch on the BBC if you are in the UK.
This obvs falls under the musica section however also here because it is so much more:
Lastly, here are my current favourite beauty products, will do another PROPER post soon on these but for now here is the illustrated version.