Outfit favourites- The capsule wardrobe

I don’t know about you but I always like my clothes better when I have to go away somewhere and I have only packed my very favourite things. I always feel better and more comfortable and its always so much easier getting dressed. Things that I know I like and have been well thought out before hand. So I am starting a new little life project, starting with my clothes. I have already had a massive grand sort out and have given a lot away to charity and will sell further things on at the flea market/ebay and Depop, so look out! However I can do more. Here is the shocking bit. I won’t be buying any more clothes, makeup, jewelry, shoes or bags for 6 months. I am allowed to replace things that I use up/ or break/ or are beyond repair. I want to mend and make more and become less of a consumer of cheap, badly made clothes and things. I have more than enough things that I don’t wear of have forgotten about and I really need to save and start getting rid of things in my life. My flat is a hoarders paradise and I want to live with the things I enjoy, love, have use for or make me happy. I also feel massively guilty about my consumeristic habits and also find my self buying things when I am unhappy or sad or need to feel better and that isn’t right. I also do not like the culture of having to buy the next big thing or trend and forgetting what I like and what my style is. I am also very impulsive with buying clothes and I would like to become more considered. So here is a start of a little project where I remix my wardrobe and start wearing or getting rid of things I do not feel fit in. I want to document the outfits and ways in which I can mix things up and re wear. I also want to start budgeting better and becoming more conscious of things and less of a broken pocket. I have written before that I love the idea of ones own uniform and mine definitely consists of comfy trainers, black and something denim. I love clothes and dressing up, also I love makeup for the same reason. It makes me feel like me when I put my favourite outfit together and am not wearing pj’s or leggings (this is my daily uniform as of late).

Here are some funny/awks/silly photos of me.

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Coat- gifted second hand / Mustard cardy- Independent shop in Gracia / Denim dress- Monki / Heart shirt- Pull & Bear / Watch- Withings / Shoes- Nike / Bag- Cambridge satchel company.

Outfit- comfy favourites

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DSCF5152Coat- Oysho / Tshirt- H&M / necklace &otherstories / Jeans Monki / Boots- Office / Bag- Cambridge satchel company.


Hello. I wrote in my last post a little bit about self-care and learning to love myself a little bit more. Most days it is a great struggle to get out of bed, let alone getting dressed and putting on makeup etc. However it is one-act that makes me feel better on the outside, even if on the inside I feel like I am rotting away a little bit. My visual identity and appearance has always been super important to me. Its how I express my self and it shows how I am and a bit of who I am. I associate an image with myself that my illness often strips away from me. I have struggled to come to terms with this a lot. As superficial as it sounds, being chronically ill and therefore having a puffed up, painful sick body just doesn’t fit in with “me”. It really isn’t a good/cool/hip look at all. Add disease and drug induced weight gain, hair loss and acne to the mix I often feel like I have lost me and my identity. Over the years I have found my style, adopted it because of this. I reach for the more comfy, materials that make me feel cosy and warm and that hide the bits of me I don’t wish to show. I am starting to accept a little bit about the way I know look and how this has changed and would very much like to start making positive changes to improve it (diet, learning to accept and soft excercise when I can). Saying that I would also like to remove some of the pressure I already put on myself about how I think I should be or look. My body is under enough pressure and shit as it is already. I think I need to enjoy the act of dressing and feeling like me, even if it’s a version I don’t recognise any more. Yay for comfort, finding ones new and already existing style and feeling comfortable in one’s skin, even if that skin isn’t brilliant and ones bones are achey. It’s the little things that make me feel better and if I can fool myself and others into looking that bit better that is a good thing.

 

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Happy Sunday to you all (as cheery as it can be all things considering). I thought that I would do an updated version of my what-I-Wore-Today. It serves more as a diary though like my last one

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So this month has passed in such a blur, like groundhog day. This sick lark is getting so very wall-climbingly-cabin-feverish boring. Trying to take an hour a day to record little ideas and thoughts either in my sketchbooks or through drawings like these. Its also about appreciating the little things like cups of tea, and enjoying those quiet moments. Its also about making healthy nutritious soups (broccoli being my fave- more to come!). Keeping dreaming too, mainly about nice little houses and wood fires and the like. We have had cosy nights in watching Sherlock and other series. Its a quiet life at the moment and all about all the small minute things.

Facing up to things

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As a sufferer of a chronic illness my skin quite literally takes a battering. Chronic fatigue (Lupus symptom) leaves my skin looking tired and just ill really. I have a horrid red rash on my cheeks thanks to Lupus. I am also allergic to UV light and sunlight (this is yet another symptom of Lupus). The medications I am taking leave me with horrid acne on my chin and neck at the grand age of 30. The steroids make me have a big fat moon face. Hey-ho though. The thing I also find that being chronically ill is that it makes my confidence and self esteem rock bottom. This is why I find such pleasure in the superficial things that make me feel a bit better about myself, a bit brighter and new. I always feel more “well” and put together and better about myself when I have put in a tiny bit of effort. Its like fooling my body into thinking its a bit better- at least I don’t look as bad as I feel inside on the outside. I also don’t want to cake my face in a load of skin eating make-up as my skin is sensitive and reacts easily. I want something good and nourishing for my face. Something that also protects me from the sun and also keeps my spots hidden or at bay. I also want something easy that doesn’t take 5 million hours to blend into my skin, something that I don’t really need to think about and something that is effortless. I am a massive BB cream fan for this reason, it feels moisturising and gives me just the right amount of coverage and protection from those harmful rays and really easy to apply. These are the best I have found thus far.

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My old faithful MAC BB cream, blends super easy. Really good colour match for me (probably the best of the three- I am PALE). I apply this with my fingers as I would a moisturiser or applied with my ever trusty new favourite the beauty blender. SPF 25- this is quite heavy duty and lasting protector of my skin- which is the most important factor for me. Quite good coverage and ever so long wearing. I will forever return to this as a base as I do love it so. It leaves my skin dewy but not shiny and my face doesn’t seem to want to eat it up as such is the case with a lot of bases. Yes a winner for me.
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Saying that, I decided to buy and try these two bases. I had heard rave things about this base from loads of BBloggers. It’s amazing. Good coverage that is like a gel. It feels super soothing and not face eaty at all. My skin likes it. The glow oh the glow that it leaves my skin with. The term dewy is so very apt. This is perfect for the summer, but with my skin needs a light dusting of face powder to keep it in place. Its so good though, my skin but better effect.
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Finally this fell into my little black basket in Sephora (that dangerous place- I am now the holder of the black card- aka the big spenders club). It smells like cucumbers and is probably the most soothing of the three. I always find that Estee Lauder seem to make good trusted skin care stuff (if its good enough for your mum…) The colour is more of the shade of my summer skin (the light is actually quite dark imo). It works better applied with the beauty blender than fingers but blends well. As I said so soothing so probably will reach for this on my more sensitive skin days.
All three bases to a marvelous job of covering up my red cheeks and protecting my skin against the sun whilst offering a light coverage and thats what I want. They also make me feel more smoothed out and a little less frazzled and put together, even on the mornings when I can’t even hardly lift my arms. I love no effort stuff. What are your favourite bases?

Weekly: The good things

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Why hello there FRI-YAY! I wanted to do another little weekly round up of good things to remind me of THE GOOD THINGS in life. I bloody need the remind to be honest. I thought I would try to illustrate them. I had a major melt down paddy at drawing my beloved PJ Harvey. I officially can’t draw PJ. She is too good to put into drawing form (I just ain’t got the skillz). I will be drawing more of my girl-heroes! I have a plenty. Lets not hope I get the strops like this time though…

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Oh Polly Jean you sure do own a piece of my black little heart. I have seen her twice in my life, both times amaazing (she was wearing a spice girl dress for one performance!). BUT this album reaches somewhere deep in my marrow and stays there. I love it. It has to be one of the best from the past 5 years if not more. Its so hauntingly beautiful and the lyrics (as always is the case with PJ) are amazing. One of my favourite albums ever and ever so fitting for my weird longing for my isle. Watch all the video’s in this playlist and listen to the full album. It will take you on a journey of an archaic English adventure.
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I have always and forever been obsessed with the 1960’s. I kind of wish I was around to document this time and see and feel it with my own eyes. It seems like such an important changeable time. I also just love any of the imagery and iconography that comes with it.

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I obviously have many a image from this era, I shall dedicate a whole blog post to it in time.
But for now check out my pinterest board for more beauts.
Follow Sarie’s board Sixties on Pinterest.

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So this is a dedication to my tools and my deepest love for what they allow me to do and for all things stationary (it says pencils above not penises…)

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Again, this is just a taster of a blog post that is to follow. I want to do one about my favourite tools and pens and pencils that I use as an artist/illustrator/maker/experimenter person. Above is my favourite pen that is from Muji. Its an indian ink filled brush pen thing. So handy and such a time saver. Its my go to pen at the moment and has heavily influenced my work as of late. The other thing pictured is my muji mechanical clicky pencil thing. Its my dream pencil and everything looks better sketched out in it. Also pictured is my beloved ink well. I love love love ink. Its dark splodgy messy marks makes everything look how I imagine it in my head. Had a terrible paddy fit of a day yesterday (as mentioned above…) when nothing comes out of my hands like it is pictured in my head and this makes me SAD and RAGEY. I hate that feeling of uselessness. It has passed though (sort of).

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I have also been loving and I mean LOVING with all my heart this series on bbc 4. Its about artists. I have reawakened my belief in what is my calling in life and what I should be doing and I don’t think I can let anything get in that way any longer. So inspired and so refreshing, here are two of my very very favourites:

Tracey was (and is still) my hero when I was 15/16/17. Her work seemed to really speak to me visually and meaningfully. I love her so so much. She is such a special weirdo and tells her unique sad and powerful story in such a way. Flaws and all. (thats what makes her so strong).

This makes for a slightly awkward viewing but I love love these two. Brilliance. Watch on the BBC if you are in the UK.

This obvs falls under the musica section however also here because it is so much more:

 

Lastly, here are my current favourite beauty products, will do another PROPER post soon on these but for now here is the illustrated version.

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WIWT Illustrated…

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A little quick post to just show you one of my favourite outfits uniforms as of late. Its really HOT here and I feel all flustered and sweaty and ill and I don’t know what to wear. Ever. My body does not do this heat at all.

Life has been a bit blah as of late, I am still sick and achey and now have horrible stomach cramps as a result of all my medication. I do not feel like being photographed so I decided to draw my outfit and throw in a sort of journal entry. I enjoyed doing this and it didn’t take long. I might even churn out some more if you are lucky (no promises though obvs haha).

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Shorts- H&M (live in these!), Cami- H&M, Denim Jacket- Monki, Sandals- Saltwater (gold!), bag- Kanken, Came’s collar- Models own.

Outfit : DENIM innit!

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Denim owns my little blue heart. I love it so, its history and versatility. This blue dream is from Monki. Monki being another favourite of mine. Its made of a stiff denim and is my go to whenever I want to feel better about myself. I like to mix and match it with tights and a good winter knit, boots and a jacket. Here it is layered to the max. This is one of my classic wardrobe staples.

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Jacket-MONKI/ Scarf-PULL&BEAR/ Dress-MONKI/ Boots-Dr Martens/ Bag-KANKEN/ Cardy-PULL&BEAR.
Socks-ZARA (sparkly and gold!). Crinkled and windswept.

Winter favourites: beauty

 

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Oh hello Winter, you soon creeped up with only 3 weeks left until christmas (AAAAH!), autumn has wreaked its havoc on my dear sensitive skin. Here are my essentials for surviving the dreaded winter skin blues.

soapySoap and Glory Hand food.  I picked this up in a foolishly small bottle at the airport last time I flew back. Oh how silly. I want to eat the stuff, oh how addicted I am to the smell. It is like a soft marshmallow balm on ones fingers. It keeps my hands from being less ragged and gross. Helps cuticles too. Am addicted and feel panicked when I know I do not have this on hand 😉

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Speaking of hands. Yuck. Horrid flakey, soft, breaking nails. Begone! This stuff is some sort of magic in a bottle and strengthens my nails up a treat. Sally Hansen HARD AS NAILS. Yep the name says it all.

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This one was bought on a whim, #TBMMBI (thats the blogger made me buy it). Yep amazing, it smoothes over any of those, ahem, fine lines and makes applying foundation/concealer a total dream. In fact this product is a pure dream. It must be made of star dust or something of the like. Its pot is tiny and red but it lasts forever. Oh primer dear primer how you have changed my life. Thanks Essie!

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I will go into full meltdown with out this here lip balm. I love it. Nothing else works. I have an awful habit of manically biting my lip when stressed or nervous and this does the trick of curing all chappedness. I love it and its natural to boot!

 

bourjoisBB dreamy creamy. This is a daily must, especially when one likes as much sleep as one does and finds it hard to get up in the morning so its goood to have a product that does a bit of everything. Whack it on and jobs done (I do like the MAC one better but this is a very good contender and is kinder on the purse!).bare

Finally a good old sprinkling of this magic dust. Bad skin and winter go hand in hand and I like to believe that this is actually doing magical powerful things rather than just eating up your skin. It has staying power too and is not all heavy and cakey. Win win!

Worn: A uniform start in Portugal

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Worn: Grey tshirt (H&M), Denim Shirt (H&M), grey Sweatshirt (Monki), Parka (Monki), Scarf (Pull&bear), Headscarf (H&M),
boots (DR Martens), Backpack (Kanken)


I have returned from “El Pueblo” (AKA the end of the end of the world). I will write later about how very important it was for me to get back to where I need to be and who I am.

Anyway Portugal was amazing as ever, but cold. The type of cold that settles in your bones and doesn’t leave. Many a layers were needed and I was still cold.

I have been thinking about my personal style and what I like and what makes me me for a while now. I am finding that I am going for more staple simple things and things that I know will last me beyond a season. A lot of the time I find my self reaching for the same kind of thing. I appreciate well cut things and also my obsession with denim knows no bounds (only rival to be*witched haha!). I like greys and autumnal colours mixed with mustard yellow. I also like sturdy things and clothes that hold up well when either cycling, on a walk or painting and printing. If you know me well I am often covered with a stain of some sort. I also like to play with classic shapes (parka, headscarf) and mix masculine and feminine things. I am planning to do a bit of a series as I embark on a quest to not actually spend any more money on clothes. I need to make my own, buy second hand or just buy absolute necessities or staples. No excuses! I need to save and stop the clothes buying binging guilt (this applies to cosmetics and beauty items too!).

What I wore: a bank holiday edition.

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Worn: Monki Jacket, Muji gingham smock dress, Newbalance 420 trainers & a vintage bag.

 

September is drawing to a close and it feels like its finally Autumn. I am writing this post tucked away in my little studio as the heavens open up and it is raining biblically. Its one of those delightful Sundays were you stay in all day catching up on tv and youtube/blogs and the like. Currently dressed in warm cosies and feeling snug is quite nice. It almost makes you wistful for the fresh breezes and dappled sunlight days that early September brings; meaning bare legs and fun dresses (as depicted on a fine Bank Holiday “Fiesta” Wednesday). Making the most of that before its all tights, jeans and layers and having to pack away summer dresses for another year.
Along with the end of September brings the promise of cooler months and autumnal(ish) clothing. I start to know how to dress and thus feel a lot more like myself. Ever happy with layering and wearing a jacket and being more covered up. Casual Sunday lunches and walks with the puppy-wonder make for laid back sartorial choices. Just the way I like it.

PS: lots-o-photos because my Pup is quite the cute one so it makes it hard to choose!